"cuchi-cuchi"

What am i getting myself into...

Yesterday i got to also hang out with my best friend tony and his boyfriend Robert at a concert. (Went to see ladyhawke pics to follow later today.) But we were talking about that to be for Halloween. He didn't know what to be so i suggested that be can be Paris Hilton. He ate that idea up and started looking for thing that look like what she would wear. He turned to me and asked me what i was going to be. I told him that i dont think i wanted to dress up for Halloween this year. That is came to him.... Her.......




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Charo... i laughed at the idea at first, than thought about it. I could pull off the Charo look. I do that the skin but not the huge boobs and i am also too tall to be there. I use to do drag all the time when i was younger. And my friend tony has not done full on drag. So i was begged, pleased, and threaten to become Charo. Get ready Halloween.... Here comes Charo... "Cuchi-Cuchi"

It's offical...

I met the man of my Dream!! Ok kinda. I got to met the nicest,handsome and fabulous Spirit of St. Lewis. We decided to have lunch at Bye & Bye but apron my arrival it was closed for lunch. It is only open from 4 to closing. Enter stage left, Arnie. Pulling up in the car to whisk us away from the rain. We went to Old Wives Tale. We were seated in the back of the restaurant. We talked about our lives and where we are at. We order our food. He had the Enchiladas with black beans and i had the Huevos Rancho with chicken. They both were very delicious dishes. We talked about all the jobs i had so far. Which is many than what many people have in there life. Talked about when i move to Seattle. Talked about Sean/his partner and the places where they are going to take. The gathering they are having for them. We talked about our babies/baby that we have.
After lunch was over we took me home and he got to see my pussy...cat and my cocks.....ok the houses pets. He even petted the pussycat i hope mason does not get jealous.

Mother Visits..

My mother made a surprise visit today. When my mother visits it is usually to get something or needs something from me. But this one was different. We talked for once. We talked about our lives. It was nice. I talked about john and how things are going. She talked about north bend, her job, love interest, her struggle with weight, snd our family. My mother is currently dating a mexican man who is in jail for driving drunk and hit someone. She met this man say she told me. I do not like the idea of my mother dating someone from jail. But it is her life so i will just be quite. Family is fine. Still doing the same. She told me how much she weights and what she want to loose. 150 pounds. I asked my mother what she eats. She eats what the school makes and than has snack food. She no longer exercises right now and gained weight. I told her to replace her lunch at work with a salad and to snack on the 100cal snacks. Over all my visit with my mother was very pleasant and it is always great seeing her!

Pedro Zamora

I just recently watched Pedro, which is about Pedro Zamora the first openly gay person on tv. MTV's the Real World San Francisco. He was also the first person i "knew" that had HIV/AIDS. He was a real person that was out there trying to let other people know that there is a disease out there. We must do what we can to help. As a young homosexual that i was. I was only about seven at the time of airing of the show. I knew i liked boys and my mother did not us watching this show on TV. I would go into my room and watch it with the closed captioning on just to know what they were talking about. As i watch Zamora talk about the issues that he faced, i knew that this would not only open my eyes but also help me understand. What if i had this, who could i tell, how can i prevent myself from getting this disease. After watching this movie, i think that everyone should see this. I cried so much, i learned about the struggle he went through and mostly the love that he had found. Below you will find a bit more about Pedro and the movie trailer.


Pedro Pablo Zamora (born Pedro Pablo Zamora y Díaz, February 29, 1972–November 11, 1994) was a Cuban-American AIDS educator and television personality.Zamora, who was openly gay and publicly discussed being HIV-positive, brought international attention to HIV/AIDS and LGBT issues and prejudices through his appearance on MTV's reality television series, The Real World: San Francisco.

U.S. President Bill Clinton credited Zamora with personalizing and humanizing those living with HIV—especially to Latino communities—with his activism, including his testimony before Congress. His romantic relationship with Sean Sasser was also documented on the show with the two getting married on air.

Dear christopher,

Dear Christopher Straub,

I hope you Win Project Runway. I love your style that you put on your outfit! You are very handsome and i would be happy to meet you and just pick your brain. What to know what inspires you.

Happy Monday Music Video

I love to re enact music video's to my own style. This is one the newer ones. This is for my best friend Amy who loves Taylor Swift. If you would like a video made for you let me know. email me at derek_zoolander29@yahoo.com Happy Monday Music Video!

Flaws...(warning semi nudes of my body)

I wanted to post something about myself. I a way that i struggle with my life. My weight. I am never going to be a stick figure. I will never get little. I will always be a big guy. I try so hard to get smaller. I am fit for my age and can run like there is no tomorrow. I am very active. I just love to eat. Meat, cheese, breads, veggies, and candy. It's in my blood. I come from a large overweight family. I try everything to ignore that i am fat. I bike to work, starting dance classes again, which is a very fun away to exercise. Dancing teaches you how to mover your body and work muscles that you never really work all over. I currently weight 230. I want to lose 20 to 30 pounds before my holiday in Australia. That give me 4ish months. I use to go to the gym but find it hard to stay focus there and plus i get hit on by all the gross older, older men. I just need to stop eating so many taste foods and drinking beer. Most of it comes from eating dinner last at times. Plus where i would i am snacking like crazy there. There are so many fatty foods there. I dislike that i have stretch marks on my tummy. It looks like i have had some kind of surgery on it. Also that my tummy sticks outs. I will never have a flat tummy, but if i work hard, eat right, and exercise and keep my mind clear i can drop that weight!

BTW if i offended you by posting pictures of my flawed body. I am sorry. But this is apart of me!
-princessa-

Sailor Moon

I was looking for costume for Emmy for halloween this year. I really want her to go as a Japanese school girl or someone from Sailor Moon. I came across this. Find with sailor scout you are!


Sailor Moon; Cosmic Moon Power
(Jan. 20 - Feb. 18)

You possess the power of the moon. The days go by slow and hard at first but in the future all of your pain will pay off. The power of Mercury will always guide you through your life so don't fear. The power of Jupiter will also help you know that you have a friend when in need.

Sailor Mercury; Mercury Star Power
(Feb. 19 - March 20)

You possess the power of Mercury. In life you needn't fear a thing because the power of the planets all support and guide you. You, yourself are intelligent and try's hard to succeed. Very important people in your life, has the power of the Moon, Jupiter, Mars, & Venus.

Sailor Mars; Mars Star Power
(March 21 - April 19)

You possess the power of Mars. You are very controling and demanding. Yet you are not a bad person. You're a caring person who loves and cherishes people, though in all kinds of ways. You seem to be jealous of people who have the power of the Moon. All of the planets will come forth into your life giving you happiness.

Sailor Jupiter; Jupiter Star Power
(April 20 - May 20)

You possess the power of Jupiter. You are a very strong and powerful person. You can be successful whenever you try. The planets, especially the Moon, admires you and looks up to you for encouragement and friendship. Happiness & sadness will fill your life always.

Sailor Venus; Venus Star Power
(May 21 - June 20)

You possess the power of Venus. You are a very arrogant yet charming person.You enjoy life to the fullest and hope that all your goals will be achieved. You can count on the other planets for help.



Sailor Pluto; Pluto Planet Power
(June 21 - July 22)

You possess the power of Pluto. You are a lone, yet powerful person. You depend on yourself not others. Many of the other planets respect you, yet they really don't know you that well.

Sailor Neptune; Neptune Planet Power
(July 23 - August 22)

You possess the power of Neptune. Your life is very fluid. You will have many strange happenings in your life. You will acheive many goals as you go through life. You gain a lot of respect from the other planets.

Sailor Uranus; Uranus Planet Power
(August 23 - Sept. 22)

You possess the power of Uranus. You are especially stronger than the other planets, and quite powerful. You try never to question anything. Your life will be filled with sorrow if you do not fill it with happiness. Neptune will always be by your side whenever you are in trouble.

Sailor Saturn; Saturn Planet Power
(Sept. 23 - Oct. 22)

You possess the power of the planet Saturn. You are a very concealed, and lonely person. You are a very special and powerful too. Unlock yourself to the world and the world will bring happiness to you. All the planets especially the Moon are very fond of you.

Sailor Star Fighter; Star Fighter Power
(Oct. 23 - Nov. 21)

You possess the power of the Star (Fighter). You are a very determined person an you do as you say. You seem to only be compatible with on people who also possess the power of the stars. The planets Uranus & Neptune dislike you.

Sailor Star Healer; Star Healer Power
(Nov. 22 - Dec. 21)

You possess the power of the Star (Healer). Your personality is similiar to the others who possess the power of the Star. You are a conservative person. You don't seem to be a person who jumps to anything. You are very stable and is a very careful person.

Sailor Star Maker; Star Maker Power
(Dec. 22 -Jan. 19)

You possess the power of the Star (Maker). Your personality is similiar to the others who possess the power of the Star. You are a smart happy person with a lor of talent. The future will open all your talents up.

something i find relaxing...

is cemeteries....

They are a place of mourning, a place of resting, a place to still connect with the lost of love ones. I love cemeteries due to they are so quiet. I love reading the Tombstones. I like taking pictures there. It's such a beautiful place, but knowing there are dead people buried in the ground, knowing i am not alone. Within a plot of strangers, Families, lovers, friends. Where flowers and gifts are no longer accepted among the dead. Where only memories are left, thoughts drift away, hope rest, dreams fade away. The past of many are there, and possibly the future.

Dance to the beat of your own drum...

Male Modern Dancers are hot. Try googling Male dancers. You will get some funny websites. Anyway i had my first dance class in three years. Now i do dance everyday. Whether is being in my room, the shower, on the max trains, riding my bike, or on the street. Music moves me and dance is a huge part of my life and makes me who i am. now most people can't dance or atleast think they can't But everyone can. The most important thing about dance is how you feel in your own body. Now most people can not bend like most dancers. But today in the modern dance class i took today. I got to not only express myself but move my body in ways i could never think i could. It was great. Curving my body up, twisting my torso, my legs in second position, my head looking up, my arms out to the side. Than a change in the music. From spread out to a closed position fast as the eye can see. Slowly we stretch out once more. Traveling in all directions, pausing into a chasse leap on to one foot, tumble to the floor raise again into a grand ronde. Freeze. It was a great two and half hours. Our sub teacher was a wonderful teacher. She took time to help everyone of different levels. I hope within time i will be able to get back on the stage and do some performances. Until than, i will just keep dancing!

The wait is over!!

Glee has started! I am so excited to finally be able to watch this. In high school i was in Choir but never have a club for it where i could express my talents of singing! So watching this show is finally giving me the chance to take the stage the way i would of!

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Dreams

This is speaking to me!

This weekend...

This is really how i will look this weekend. I will be a chihuahua in the water. In my wet suit. I am not scared, i am excited. Too excited.

When i was younger...

My family never had money for us kids to take a lunch to school. We only had lunch when it was a field trip. Most of the time i would eat the free lunches at the school. But now that i am a teacher and work with some really great kids. Recently on our field trip, one of my students came up to me and asked me to read the note above in the picture to them.

Note:
WE LOVE OUR BUG!
LOVE MOMMY,DADDY,AND CLAIRE

Upon reading this, i wish that my mother did things like this. I wished that i got special lunches with secret love notes. I wished that my mother or father would tell me more how much the did love me when i was younger. The child of the note. Her face lit up like a candle. Her smile beamed from ear to ear. She was in love with the fact that her family cares so much about her. After lunch that day, that is all she talked about. How much her family loved her. I am glad that some of the parents in my class show their kids how much they love them! When i have my child. I plan to do things like this!

The Climb

I am reaching for you.
I feel lost without you.
I look to the left and right.
Above and below. I can not find you.
I run in circles, Up hills, swim across
rivers. Jump through rings of fire.
My heart is racing. I look for you face.
I see nothing.

I am over an Ocean.
I am over the sky.
I am over the hills.


I am here.....waiting!