Tha hard part is over!

Last night i went through everything i wanted to keep and things i didn't. Let me tell you that i made some really hard choices on clothes to keep. I kept most of my winter clothes and got rid of most of the stuff i wore in high school and work. I Find it hard that i gave up two bags of clothes, some dishes that i do not need, a lot of papers that i did not need and some picture frames. I feel very relieved to get all the things i do not need and keep the stuff i wear daily close. I did fit all my stuff in the five large bins i first moved with. My room is bare, i have enough clothes to last me til the first when i move. I will miss my memories here, but look forward to all the news ones i will be making and will enjoy spending time with a great loving family. All changes are good for something and i believe that my change has come. I am excited to be closer to some places and get to venture out to a part of Portland i use to live. But not only that but get to be an older brother again. I can do some things that i never got to do when i was younger. Like take my sister to the park and just play, or go to the store or some place and have dinner. I cant wait to bring some joy into my friend's lives.

So i say good bye to this house in Aloha which is out in butt fuck Egypt. And Say hello to closeness, fun, and Slumber parties. I will teach the two future sisters and "how to wash your face, pluck your eye brows, and the wonders of Facial Cleansers." Everything a gay older brother would do. He he he i can not wait!


Derek

What do dreams mean?

Last night i had this dream were i was in a Karaoke contest with a bunch of friends from high school. We had outfits, stage props, the works. We all passed until it came to the duo singing part. Now i'm not really one to sing with another due to i will out shine them. Well in my dream i has a sailor uniform on and was about to sing "In the Navy"

Well as i was going to the stage my co singer was a male in chaps, ass less chaps. I looked down on my outfit again an was in a jockstrap and sailor hat.

Is fearing the worst.

My roommate/other mom has i think done the worst thing in her life. She has invited another man from Louisiana to live with us. Now she has been talking with this guy for a few months now. Since December, and will he is a drug addict, slob, a father of a 5 yrs, and cause pain to others. And yet i have told her that i do not feel comfortable with having this man come live with us. She claims to "love him." But she only loves the thought of him and she has sent him money to help him out and told him about ways he can get help. I really fear that his man will break her heart and destroy her live and cause her much pain. I do not know anything about this man or what he will be doing when i am at work. I really just want to find another place to live cause of this. I am freaking out a bit about this. What the fuck!! HELP!!!

I think he's Super Delicious!!!!

I cant wait til the New x men origins come out may 1st. I love the X men but merely more i love HUGH JACKMAN!!!

Fun, fun, fun, til his daddy takes his T bird away

Holy shit I've been one busy guy this weekend. My weekend started on Saturday. I went to the Stumptown Comic book Con. It was really fun! I'm not really into comics, but i love comic art. I got this really cool batman bitch slapping robin. I also got this really great graphic novel about the timw during Gettysburg. I'm a huge Abe Lincoln fan! I was also exposed to the great work of derek stubbs (www.derekstubbs.com) His work is amazing.He has many different styles of comics. Plus he is a cutie! I wanted to be a superhero. I wish that some more people dressed up cause i was. ha ha ha





Last night went out and sang some Karaoke with some of my old class mates from high school. It was great to get together with old classmate that i like but there was this one that i never liked. When i was in junior i ran for student council and my running mate. Well long story short, i was out voted and not as popular as i am now. But she has not changed. She was snobby, and not interactive with our group. I was a little sad due to two of our classmates didn't show up. They were down the street at Kelis drunk. I did win the title of smallest nipples. But lots of drinks, pool, dancing, and singing. My friend Andrew and myself Sang "I want you to want me" by cheap trick.Well after closing time i we stayed over in downtown with our friend Rian.



And today, I went to Mount Hood for snowboarding. First time ever and what a ride. At first i felt so awkward, but after falling down like 1,000 times i finally made it half way down the mountain and ate snow hard. My legs are hurting and my tummy and ass hurt. Great sun, great friends and a great weekend ending. I feel so tired and am ready for a good nights rest.



Derek

WTF!!!

When it comes to dreams, I dream in color. Last night I had a crazy dream where I was pregnant with my child. I was walking home when a jumped by two men. They told me that gay men can not have babies. "That is a lie" I told them. Soon I was introduced to his rings on his fingers. One of his rings was a class ring with a blue gem with his school mascot and high school graduation year. It seem like I know this ring.

Repeatedly I was punched all over my face, chest, arms. My face crimson red bloody, bruised, black and blue. I wonder what have I done to deserve this. I try to look into his face but see a blurry face. I try to fight back but the other man. As I took each punch. Uppercut, my blood flows from my cuts and sores. They leave me beaten up, in the street. I reach for my phone to call my partner. I get no answer. I call 911 and tell them about what happen and need help.

I'm raced to the hospital and seen by the doctor on duty. My face feels sore. I'm panic, I feel worried. My heart is crushed due to my baby might be hurt. I pray and hope to god that nothing bad happens. I start contractions, go into labor and give birth to my son.

I find out that my partner knew about me getting beaten that he didn't want to see how I looked like or the affect of what our child too. Lucky I woke up to feel as if I was beaten. By that was cause of my work out yesterday.

What a crazy dream.

Bring your Wimple....

It's been SEVEN LONG YEARS since SING-A-LONG SOUND MUSIC's last visitation to Cinema 21. Much has been endured and much has changed since 2002, but the need to get together with a crowd of like-minded Van Trappists is as great as ever ... should we say greater? Isn't it time to dust off your nun's costume again or that Nazi uniform in the back of the closet? Isn't it about time to get some quality Maria time? Is it time to get your group of friends together to sing your hearts out to that remarkable Rodgers and Hammerstein songbook? We'll provide the costume contest, the hostess who channels Julie, the funpacks and the lyrics on screen. You gather up a few of your favorite people and climb every mountain to get here when our halls will be alive with The Sound of Music once again!



I think my whole gay life has been waiting for this. I Can't believe it. The Sound of music sing along... Holy shit!! YEAHH!!! WOOO!!!
Ha not that is out of my system. Well i love the sound of music and what better to enjoy it is a sing along with costume's and dancing and groups of people like me that like to put on a show. Here are the times. Come, be a nazi, Sing, Save the children and don't be Barron!

Showing: Begins May 1
Showtimes: Fri 5/1: 7:00; Sat 5/2: 1:00, 7:00; Sun 5/3: 1:00; Sat 5/9: 1:00; Sun 5/10: 1:00

Derek aka Princessa

In the Butt gay...

For those of you that know me, I'm a pretty fun guy. but when you mix my sister into that we are crazy. So here we are with out verison of gay or not gay! Enjoy!!!

Did i find eggs on easter??

Well kinda. (wuhahahaha Evil laugh there)

But i went to Seattle this Weekend and had a great time. And I finally got to met a fellow blogger. It's the one, the only RAD HOMO!! It was a complete excitement to met him and his partner. They have a beautiful home just a few minutes outside of Seattle, with their 3 babies. Well on Saturday night My partner and myself went over to have a early Easter get together. Some of this friends i had the pleasure of meeting. And let me tell you, they are wonderful host. Great food, great company, great tunes. I'm so happy that i got to met these two in person and can't wait to hang out with them more once i move to Seattle.

Other than that, i did connect with my partner more. We talked about my future in Seattle. What we both want in a couple of years, How his trip with his father was. Our summer trip. How much we love each other.

Our Easter was great too. We both went to church, My hubby is an ordained minster and helped gave the reading today and service was great. (i'm not much of a church going person) But really enjoyed it and brought back a bunch of childhood memories. When i was younger, church always seemed to drag on forever and what an hour was like a month to me. I hated going to church, and never fully understood jesus and what he had to offer to me. So trying to accept that Jesus died for my sin was one thing, but that he has risen and i was to go to church in order to receive gifts of chocolate and toys that a "Easter bunny" has sent god to do his work. I remember once in Sunday school i was with my sister and the resident mother of one of my best friends had taken on Sunday school. When she asked us what Easter mean to us, I was the first to shout out' "sitting in church forever, than going to a place where old people gave me really bad eggs" To which i made the class laugh but was sent to say ten hail mary's.
When she spoke with my mother, she told her that we visit a nursing home and the residents gave us eggs in exchange of my time. She smiled at me and told me sorry for not letting me explain my answer. After church we did go to the Nursing home and got eggs which i really didn't want in the first place, but put my happy face on and allowed the elderly folks there to smother me with love.
Oh, but after church we went back home and made a wonderful Easter Brunch and took our Easter picture together. Slept for and hour and sent me off on the train. On the train i was greeter to some Cosplay Characters. Well Cosplay, short for "costume play",is a type of performance art whose participants outfit themselves, with often-elaborate costumes and accessories, as a specific character or idea. Characters are usually sourced in various Japanese and East Asian media, including manga, anime, tokusatsu, comic books, graphic novels, video games, and fantasy movies. Other sources include performers from J-pop, J-rock, visual kei, fantasy music stories (such as stories by the band Sound Horizon), novels, and objects from cyberspace or the real world that are unique and dramatic (especially if they have or can be given an anthropomorphic form).
I have never been introduced to such a form of entertainment. But some of these people dressed as my favortie Anime or video game. It was pretty fun to see them dressed on the train like that. Most of them were teenagers 18 to 25.

What a great weekend.

Derek

Easter already...

Get you Egg on.

So at school today we had an easter party/ hunt.It was fun. When i was little my family didn't really do anything for Easter. I mean we did get somethings but not much. Church was one of the things we did. Once we had gone to a Nursing home where my mother and Aunt worked at. Instead of hiding the eggs, we went into the rooms of the Elderly and had to retrieve the eggs personally from them. They were either half asleep, out of their mind, on their meds, or just crazy. Saying how cute my brothers and sister are and hand us candy or a hard boiled egg painted some color. Of course as a child i was already afraid of old people and clowns. So when having to go to a place were old people lived, i was of course freaking out. They knew stuff about me. My mother would talk about all us kids to the residents there. So when told how was my soccer going i just laughed awkwardly and smiled. But i brought joy to people whose family forgot about them. And it made me stronger. And i made little ones Happy and got them a sugar high that now their parents might hate me later for!

Oh well,


Happy Easter!

Derek

i have the greatest best friend.

This weekend was full of sun for once in our lives here in the great northwest. I was so set to get out and do something outside. I love nature and love being where the green grass grows. On saturday i went to Washington park and hiked 4 miles through the wilderness. It was wonderful. Fresh green leaves, crisp air, fresh mud. It was great fun taking pictures. Down to the Rose garden, and the view of the City engulfed in sunshine. After the garden we headed down to Saturday market and had some gyro's and ice cream. A well treat for a great day. On sunday another sunny day, my best gal friend amy and i went and took our bikes out and rode around Beaverton. There are so many great neighborhoods and homes. We rode for and hour and a half. Parks, sun, swing sets, and a great friend. What a great time and thank god for the sun.

Weekend Montage

why gym...WHY!!!!

So i went to the gym today for my Step class i have taken before. I really like the instructor, she is fun, full of energy and positive words.Usually i hate the gym and would rather go running. But i really like this group class. It's small and great music. Well we all went at our own pace on some of the work out and i kicked everyone else ass.

Word. i wish i would of took picutes of how gay i looked working out!

Quote of the Day

Well Bryon she's had gastric bypass surgery!

Lonely...

This whole past week. I've been feeling lonely. I can stay being away from the one i love. Does everyone go through this? I mean i feel incomplete. We can only talk right now through email. Apart of me feels so sad and empty and yet i know i will see him soon. I guess when he travels from now on. I'm going!

ugh april first

Today my class is going to play. please pray that everything goes well!

help me lord!!