Of Hello Kitty........
The girls let me use their Hello kitty clock of a while. Well i found out house to use the alarm this his is what it tells me... LOL hello kitty you are so Silly!!!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I'm a fan
Of Hello Kitty........
The girls let me use their Hello kitty clock of a while. Well i found out house to use the alarm this his is what it tells me... LOL hello kitty you are so Silly!!!
Disorders.....
So i had a few disorders when i was younger. Like i could not eat food in front of others. When i would go out with my family. I would ask to get my food to go. While my family consumed their food i sat there waiting for the meal to be over and thinking how good it would be to be at home in my room eating. I always never liked eating in front of people i didn't know. I finally learned how to cope with this disorder of mine. I was never Anorexic i just liked eating by myself. I have coped with way like I cover my mouth when i eat anything in front of people, Eat when no one is around, if i have to eat in front of people i wait til no one is looking at me cover my mouth and take a bit. I guess the fear of being judged on what i was eating when i was younger really hit me hard. I hated when people would ask me what i was eating and than comment on what i told them i was eating.
Thus now i really don't eat in front of people. Even at work, I don't eat with my kids. I don't even ask the one who brought a lunch from home what they are eating. I don't want to push any of my disorders onto them.
The second disorder i have is that i have to keep my teeth brushed/clean at all times. I keep a tooth brush with me at all times. I brush my teeth about 20 plus times a day. There is just the feeling that even if i feel that my mouth is dirty i have to go brush and make sure if feel cleans. I do get a healthy smile and clean mouth from this but it always feels like my mouth is dirty.
Third is my hands. I have to constantly wash my hands and lotion them. I hate when my hands feel like they are dirty. I'm not a Spermatophobia or Spermophobia. i just don't like dirty hands i must lotion my hands after i touch something.
What a crazy like i live at times!
Derek
Thus now i really don't eat in front of people. Even at work, I don't eat with my kids. I don't even ask the one who brought a lunch from home what they are eating. I don't want to push any of my disorders onto them.
The second disorder i have is that i have to keep my teeth brushed/clean at all times. I keep a tooth brush with me at all times. I brush my teeth about 20 plus times a day. There is just the feeling that even if i feel that my mouth is dirty i have to go brush and make sure if feel cleans. I do get a healthy smile and clean mouth from this but it always feels like my mouth is dirty.
Third is my hands. I have to constantly wash my hands and lotion them. I hate when my hands feel like they are dirty. I'm not a Spermatophobia or Spermophobia. i just don't like dirty hands i must lotion my hands after i touch something.
What a crazy like i live at times!
Derek
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
i am now
A huge Fan of Glee!!!
holy shit,
i love this new show. Glee is about four high school students that want to belong on fit in. This is kinda the way my life was. But instead of trying to get famous. i am now a fan of glee and will be watching it when it is on. Here is just a bit about this show.
holy shit,
i love this new show. Glee is about four high school students that want to belong on fit in. This is kinda the way my life was. But instead of trying to get famous. i am now a fan of glee and will be watching it when it is on. Here is just a bit about this show.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Sunday hunt
Today the girls and i went on a weird photo hunt. This is what we found! we enjoyed the hot sun, ice cream and a water fight!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
if there is anything i really hate....
It's being sick!
i hate feeling sick' Having to lay in bed and watch the world around me change. I was sick this morning. I blame one of my students for his mother bringing him in when he had a fever of 102. He was very clingy to me yesterday and due to my caring personality i got sick last night. I went out for one drink with my friends and they next thing i knew was that i was running to the bathroom to threw up. I know what you are thinking. I only truly had one drink and it was like two drinks before i started to threw up. Rushing to the bathroom of where all the male strippers work and feeling that burn of all the things i ate was so not pleasant! My friends thought that i was really drunk and threw up. Well was i slept today i could feel my body twisting and i feel like i drank my weight in water. Ugh being sick sucks!!!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Starbucks eaquals dating??
Yesterday morning i went into starbucks to get a coffee. I usually do not drink coffee in the morning due to i am already hyper. I went to the on in Pioneer courthouse square and i know of one the employee's from when i first moved to portland and he was hitting on my friend E, and even asked him out to which my friend rejected this earlier. Well i just freshly shaved and was going to get my haircut today as well. I thought to myself "please dont give me that guy." Of course i get him and he smiles and me and asks me how i am doing. I tell him i'm fine and my order. When giving my my change he ask if i was going to pride this year.. i was a bit shocked and confused. He tells me that pride has been moved up one week from father's day and thati should go. Now this man is a bear. Shaved head, large physique, ears pierced. I'm not into the whole asking me if i'm going to pride and all. Be i slowly walk away to where the drinks are made. He tells me that he "hopes to see me around." I really do not know if he was hitting on me or just being too friendly. I get my coffee and start to leave out the door. He told me once more "hope to see you around Derek" He only knows my name due to i had to tell him for my order. Is that against the handbook of Starbucks? Does that seem really unprofessional? Or am i over re-acting? BTW this is how i look know with my spring
look.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Mother's Day...
First off happy Mother's day to all the mother's out there that read my blog.
Well it's been as of this day, 7 years since i came out' Well i'm going to tell you my story.
It was May 10th, 2003. Mother's Day. I was so ready to tell my mother i was queer. I had my give in hand. I walked slowly to her room where my mother was resting from her day of being taken care of. I knocked on her door saying, "Hey mom i need to tell you something!" I turned the knob of the door and walked in to see my mother on her bed sitting up, bright eyes and smiles. i bought my mother a gold necklace and had it in hand. I sat next to her on the edge of the bed, ready to spew out my secret.
I turned to my mother and gave her the gift. As she was opening her i started to say, "mom i have to tell you something, than without warning it came out. Mom..... i love COCK! I love cock. I can't believe i told my mother that. She smiled and said how nice, but she was talking about the gift i gave her, until she finally hit her what i was talkin about. She looked at me and i just upped and walked out.
I can't believe what word i used to tell my mother i was gay. We both laugh at my coming out day. So mother and myself... Happy Mother's day and Coming out day to us both!
Well it's been as of this day, 7 years since i came out' Well i'm going to tell you my story.
It was May 10th, 2003. Mother's Day. I was so ready to tell my mother i was queer. I had my give in hand. I walked slowly to her room where my mother was resting from her day of being taken care of. I knocked on her door saying, "Hey mom i need to tell you something!" I turned the knob of the door and walked in to see my mother on her bed sitting up, bright eyes and smiles. i bought my mother a gold necklace and had it in hand. I sat next to her on the edge of the bed, ready to spew out my secret.
I turned to my mother and gave her the gift. As she was opening her i started to say, "mom i have to tell you something, than without warning it came out. Mom..... i love COCK! I love cock. I can't believe i told my mother that. She smiled and said how nice, but she was talking about the gift i gave her, until she finally hit her what i was talkin about. She looked at me and i just upped and walked out.
I can't believe what word i used to tell my mother i was gay. We both laugh at my coming out day. So mother and myself... Happy Mother's day and Coming out day to us both!
Richard cheese
This weekend, Emmy and myself went to a great, fun, humorous show by the funny Richard Cheese. His outfits were fantastic, his voice was witty and very sexy. The lounge song of the popular songs these days were so funny. I really enjoyed going to his show. He was drinking while he was performing which made his so at one i think with people. I did not the enjoy people in front of us. They smelt, were seeping the sweat of alcohol from their drinks. The sway of the drunk man that stood about 6'4" with his other drunk friends. At the end of the show the guy who was swaying turned around and thanked emmy and myself for keeping him on his feet and that we didn't allow him to fall over. I swear that every time his back would sway into us and i pushed him back, we both were afraid that one of us was going to get punched! Over all Richard Cheese has become a new artist i will be listening too. Thank you Emmy for inviting me and Thank you Richard Cheese.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
I didn't know...
"That teacher's don't poop!!"
A couple of days one of my students was having just a day of hell. He is a three years, cute as hell, and the smallest in my class. i mean his really short and has a really tiny voice. Well i was trying to help my class get ready nap. After lunch they go to the bathroom and wash their hands than off to nap. Well this little one was so sassy and fussy than he didn't want to nap. When some of my kids don't want to nap they ask and pleaded to go to the bathroom and play around. He asked me three times if he could go to the bathroom and i told him that he already did and need to play down.
Thus he replied that he did needed too and that i was being mean. I told him i wasn't being mean and that he wanted to go play in the bathroom and he didn't need to go potty. He raised his voice saying that Teachers don't poop! I was shocked to hear this and than started laughing. I told him i do go to the bathroom. He told me that i don't use the same bathroom as them so therefore i don't poop' I told him that i don't want to get germs and sick and that their bathroom is not suitable for a teacher of my size. He just looked at me confused and went straight for his nap.
Guess i showed him!
A couple of days one of my students was having just a day of hell. He is a three years, cute as hell, and the smallest in my class. i mean his really short and has a really tiny voice. Well i was trying to help my class get ready nap. After lunch they go to the bathroom and wash their hands than off to nap. Well this little one was so sassy and fussy than he didn't want to nap. When some of my kids don't want to nap they ask and pleaded to go to the bathroom and play around. He asked me three times if he could go to the bathroom and i told him that he already did and need to play down.
Thus he replied that he did needed too and that i was being mean. I told him i wasn't being mean and that he wanted to go play in the bathroom and he didn't need to go potty. He raised his voice saying that Teachers don't poop! I was shocked to hear this and than started laughing. I told him i do go to the bathroom. He told me that i don't use the same bathroom as them so therefore i don't poop' I told him that i don't want to get germs and sick and that their bathroom is not suitable for a teacher of my size. He just looked at me confused and went straight for his nap.
Guess i showed him!
Monday, May 4, 2009
Weekend Montage
What a busy weekend i have had.
For starters I moved to North Portland with some really really great Friends that are close to my own family. I am so happy and am close to everything, Plus it feels like i have two sisters which i love. i can help them with daily life and other chores around the house. I also was in the middle of the May day March parade. As you can see there by the pictures, there were many police and lots of protests marching for migration rights and gay rights. Secondly i went to a house warming/ may day party. It was so great to see old co workers and drink, drink, and drink. Hearing the three bands that night was so great. Different style and different lyrics, and different sounds. Great fun. The next morning we went to Farmers Market. Great greens, great friends, great tastes.
The sound of music Sing along was awesome. just look at the pictures. And john had this birthday today!!!
For starters I moved to North Portland with some really really great Friends that are close to my own family. I am so happy and am close to everything, Plus it feels like i have two sisters which i love. i can help them with daily life and other chores around the house. I also was in the middle of the May day March parade. As you can see there by the pictures, there were many police and lots of protests marching for migration rights and gay rights. Secondly i went to a house warming/ may day party. It was so great to see old co workers and drink, drink, and drink. Hearing the three bands that night was so great. Different style and different lyrics, and different sounds. Great fun. The next morning we went to Farmers Market. Great greens, great friends, great tastes.
The sound of music Sing along was awesome. just look at the pictures. And john had this birthday today!!!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
work
There are many things I love about my job and things I don't. Let's start with ones I love.
Coming into work and knowing that my classroom love to see me.
Knowing that there are some challenges that face me during my day. Having a co worker that backs me up anytime and is there for each other. Knowing that I have control over the act ivies or lessons we are doing for the day. How I get to interact with my class and watch them grow as each day passes. Teaching them right and wrong way and what language to use. All the love I get and hugs and highly praised I am in the eyes of my class.
Bad part of my job.
When someone has an accident in their pants and I have to assit. When my students Cry for no reason or throw a fit about something not reasonable. When one of the student decides that it's OK to hit a teacher or hit a class mate. When they over react over something small. When they tell on someone for looking at them or doing something that is not hurting the other student. When they scream and run away from the person causing trouble. When I just asked them to do something and than come up and ask what to do next.
Coming into work and knowing that my classroom love to see me.
Knowing that there are some challenges that face me during my day. Having a co worker that backs me up anytime and is there for each other. Knowing that I have control over the act ivies or lessons we are doing for the day. How I get to interact with my class and watch them grow as each day passes. Teaching them right and wrong way and what language to use. All the love I get and hugs and highly praised I am in the eyes of my class.
Bad part of my job.
When someone has an accident in their pants and I have to assit. When my students Cry for no reason or throw a fit about something not reasonable. When one of the student decides that it's OK to hit a teacher or hit a class mate. When they over react over something small. When they tell on someone for looking at them or doing something that is not hurting the other student. When they scream and run away from the person causing trouble. When I just asked them to do something and than come up and ask what to do next.
updatinon
I'm so thankful to have great friends that love and care about me. Emmy and garbonzo are really great wonderful friends in my life and I feel so safe and laid back with them. I can talk to them about anything.
The maverick life is a new and wonderful personal friend as well. We have been talking about life and things going on in our lives. Telling him personal things about my past life on the phone. Plus he has the sexiest accent!! I melt!!! LOL.
Having a very supportive boyfriend has really made me appreciate him more. He tells me to think about it and sleep on it do I know that I have made the right choice.
great new life!!1
The maverick life is a new and wonderful personal friend as well. We have been talking about life and things going on in our lives. Telling him personal things about my past life on the phone. Plus he has the sexiest accent!! I melt!!! LOL.
Having a very supportive boyfriend has really made me appreciate him more. He tells me to think about it and sleep on it do I know that I have made the right choice.
great new life!!1
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