Ricky Martin is..

Gay.. Gayer than the day is Long.

I am glad that after all these years, he has the courage to come out! One more for Team Homo!

I am growing tired

of the same routine...

I feel like I need more in my daily routine. The simple chores around the house have become beyond mandatory and seem like it's just part of my daily life. Clean house, vacuum, dishes, pets, trash, cook. I need something to get me out of this slump I am feeling. But what sound i do?

Run more? Taking up the Arts? Sushi making... There are so many things and yet i feel that some type of change will make me feel like I am doing something with my life.

Happy Birthday..

Let the new Birth year Begin!

Free Seattle

Day of Birth...

Every year when my day of birth comes around, I feel sad and incomplete. Could it be the fact that I am getting older, that my family is not here to spend it with me, or that most of my friends are in different parts the the states. Either way, a few days before my birthday I get sad and don''t want to get older. I want to stay young, I want to live forever! I never want to die, get wrinkles, get gray hair, turn into an older man. Basically my father. ...

So here are some important dates that landed on my birthday! Enjoy....

• 1986 Personal posting - Jessica Lynn H. is born in detroit MI - USA
  
• 1986 58th Academy Awards: "Out of Africa", William Hurt & Geraldine Page win
  
• 1986 NASA publishes "Strategy for Safely Returning the Space Shuttle to Flight Status"
  
• 1986 Suriname army Captain Etienne Boerenveen arrested for cocaine smuggling
  
• 1986 US & Libya clash in Gulf of Sidra
  
• 1987 First Soul Train Music Awards: Janet Jackson, Luther Vandross win
  
• 1987 Western Australia win the Sheffield Shield by drawing cricket final vs Victoria
  
• 1988 Quarterback Dan Fouts retires
  
• 1989 Exxon Valdez oil spill: In Alaska's Prince William Sound the Exxon Valdez spills 240,000 barrels (42,000 m) of petroleum after running aground.
  
• 1989 Mary Martin in "Peter Pan", first time seen on TV since 1973
  
• 1989 The worst oil spill to ever occur in U.S. territory begins after the supertanker Exxon Valdez, owned and operated by the Exxon Corporation, runs aground on a reef in Prince William Sound in southern Alaska
  
• 1990 Indian troops leave Sri Lanka
  
• 1991 11th Golden Raspberry Awards: Ford Fairlane & Ghosts Can't Do It win
  
• 1991 In liberated Kuwait, banks reopen
  
• 1991 Wrestlemania VII in Los Angeles, Hulk Hogan pins Sergeant Slaughter for championship
  
• 1992 First Belgian in the space, Dirk Frimout on Atlantis Space Shuttle STS-45 (Atlantis 11) launches into space
  
• 1992 Sudanese Boeing 707 crashes on mountain Hymettos at Athens; 5-6 die
  
• 1993 Ezer Weizman elected President of Israel
  
• 1993 Personal posting - Jessica Lynn Is born
  
• 1993 Personal posting - Susej Maria Taveras Urena was born. - USA
  
• 1993 Personal posting - Kyle Morrison was born - USA
  
• 1994 "Carousel" opens at Beaumont Theater NYC for 322 performances
  
• 1994 F-16 collides with C-130 Hercules above AFB in North Carolina, 120 die
  
• 1994 Robert F Kennedy Jr divorces Emily Black
  
• 1996 16th Golden Raspberry Awards: Showgirls wins
  
• 1996 Eastenders star Michael French is reported to be a homosexual
  
• 1996 MTA raises NYC bridge tolls to $3.50 each way
  
• 1996 U.S. astronaut Shannon Lucid safely transfers to the Russian space station Mir from the U.S. space shuttle Atlantis for a planned five-month stay.
  
• 1997 69th Academy Awards: "The English Patient", Tom Cruise & Frances McDormand win
  
• 1997 Australian parliament overturns world's first & only euthanasia law
  
• 1998 Jonesboro massacre: In Jonesboro, Arkansas, two boys (aged 11 and 13 years) fire upon students at Westside Middle School; four students and one teacher are killed and 10 injured.
  
• 1998 Tornado sweeps through Dantan in India killing 250 people and injuring 3000 others.
  
• 1999 Kosovo War: NATO commences air bombardment against Yugoslavia, marking the first time NATO has attacked a sovereign country.
  
• 1999 Mont Blanc Tunnel Fire: 39 people died when a Belgian transport truck carrying flour and margarine caught fire in Mont Blanc Tunnel.
  
• 2000 The S&P 500 reaches an all-time high of 1527.46.
  
• 2000 Two 18-year-old boys are arrested in Britain on charges of breaking into e-commerce Internet sites in five countries, stealing information on more than 26,000 credit card accounts and posting some of it on the Web
  
• 2003 The Arab League votes 21-1 in favor of a resolution demanding the immediate and unconditional removal of U.S. and British soldiers from Iraq.
  
• 2006 Long-term protests in Belarus are broken by police.
  
• 2006 Pope Benedict XVI adds 15 men to the College of Cardinals, in the first consistory of his Pontificate

Dream

No my Dreams have not been of men sleeping with me. But I have been having strange dreams. I also dream in color. Does anybody else do? Well here's one dream.

I was at home with my friend sam playing some video games. All of a sudden there was a blue flash and we were sucked into the game. Now the game was a cross of Mortal Combat and Marvel Vs. Capcom and Bayonetta. Well Sam, super power was glitter and mine was rainbows and sunshine. During our quest to fight our way out, we learned that our Boss to beat was Lady Gaga and Beyonce.(That's what I get for listening to her music) Sam and I slashed our way from battle to battle. Finally we came to our Final Boss. Lady Gaga was drunk and she kept telling us, "I'm Drrrrunkkkkk Bitches!" I thought want a way to easily take her down. I walked over to her and tried to hurt her with my rainbow. All of a Sudden this Red demon beast emerged from her body, took ahold of my soul. And swallowed me whole. I died. I Became no longer living. It was up to Sam. Sam already killed Beyonce with a dance off and took her chainsaw hands. And with one swoop of his hand. Cut the head off of Gaga's demon beast. I awoke moments later grabbing at my arms and feet as through I had been cut or lost a leg.

Have you seen???

My head nearly blew up upon seeing such awesomeness! There are so many influences in this video. Madonna, Michael Jackson, plus the whole kill bill

feel makes it complete. Please watch and enjoy!

Technology will be the death of us!

Today when i went to the bank to get some money out of the ATM to send my nephew for his birthday this month. The ATM told me Happy Birthday. I was startled at first than become confused due to my birthday is not for eight more days. But I never in the past had anything like this happen. It felt awkward to have it be announced in public for everyone in walking distance and loud so people can hear. Is Technology going to kill us soon. They know everything.... Keep your eyes open!

Happy Pie Day!

It seems...

The more good energy I put out there the more bad I get.

Have you ever felt that way. Either with the daily things in your life, the energy towards your job, trying to friend a job, friends, family, pets. Have you ever thought about giving it all up? Have you tried to be positive but really on the inside you horrible, worthless, and even doubtfully? I try to stay happy and positive but something is coming over me. I have been a terrible boyfriend I think. I have started to give my partner love taps. Like last night i whacked him pretty good in the head for something he said. I told the dogs to stop being lazy when in reality I have been lazy as well. I feel like getting a job right now is not enough at this point. I am start to worry about my future. Like will i become my father, and do the same things as he did when I was little?

Will hate and fear become me? Will i worry as much as my partner does? Will I fail at the game called LIFE? What has become me? What will I become? What will help?

I haven't cried in a while. I was always told not to show emotion as it is a sign that you are weak. Thanx dad. I fear that i will not become my own self, But something more like my father. The only thing i need to stop is to give into my emotions. It's hard to share ones emotions when you were raised not to tell anyone them. Even your family. I can't turn to prays, I lost my religion when i was young. I have no faith, nothing to really help me reach and believe that there is something out there to realize that there is more to emotions. I have friends that i can call, family that tries to support my daily struggle. One thing i know that i miss is being so close to my mother. She is in a whole other state and all i can do is call her and ask her life's questions and hope that all the best is in her outlook.

When i was younger i told my mother i wanted to live with her forever. That I was going to take care of her, make her dinner, tend to her, spend the rest of my life with her. Now look at here I am at. A 23 going on 24 gay man in Seattle, that never goes to visit her. I have lost my connection with my own mother. Is that bad? Or in a way good... Have i become distant?

Memories....

Below are pictures of the Elementary School I went to as a child. All my siblings attended this school, but it was after my sister left the school it was forced to closed down. I attended Bangor Elem. in the mid 90's. It was closed back in 2000's

Who ever knew!

I would be in love with Alec Baldwin!

Life....

“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”

-James Dean-