Tha hard part is over!

Last night i went through everything i wanted to keep and things i didn't. Let me tell you that i made some really hard choices on clothes to keep. I kept most of my winter clothes and got rid of most of the stuff i wore in high school and work. I Find it hard that i gave up two bags of clothes, some dishes that i do not need, a lot of papers that i did not need and some picture frames. I feel very relieved to get all the things i do not need and keep the stuff i wear daily close. I did fit all my stuff in the five large bins i first moved with. My room is bare, i have enough clothes to last me til the first when i move. I will miss my memories here, but look forward to all the news ones i will be making and will enjoy spending time with a great loving family. All changes are good for something and i believe that my change has come. I am excited to be closer to some places and get to venture out to a part of Portland i use to live. But not only that but get to be an older brother again. I can do some things that i never got to do when i was younger. Like take my sister to the park and just play, or go to the store or some place and have dinner. I cant wait to bring some joy into my friend's lives.

So i say good bye to this house in Aloha which is out in butt fuck Egypt. And Say hello to closeness, fun, and Slumber parties. I will teach the two future sisters and "how to wash your face, pluck your eye brows, and the wonders of Facial Cleansers." Everything a gay older brother would do. He he he i can not wait!


Derek

Dream a dream.....

Last night.I had a dream about you. In this dream, i was dancing right beside you.




You dressed in your black tux, I was in my white tux. The floor was light, the music was playing. You smiled at me. I smiled back at you. You took me out on the floor and offered your hand. I gladly accepted, as you pulled me into you. As we stood there, waiting for the music to start, you stared into my brown eyes and told me how much you cared for me and wanted to be with me. I wrapped my arms tightly a rounded you and kissed you and told you that i love you. Just than the band started up and we softly wowed the crowd and fellow family members and friends. We were in sync with each other. Knowing what move came next, every smile,look, body movement. I wish that was what really happen. But i soon awoke from that dream and reached over. You where not next to me. You are up in Seattle. Dreaming your own dreams. About me? About your life? About all the hope you wish for...? About what you want to happen...? I wish that i didn't have to awake up alone. Or sleep with the replacement teddy bear that is named after you. He does nothing for me. I want to be with you.

Your Handsome Prince......

The Best book on the planet

If you haven't read this book yet. Come on, bigfoot, love, killing, gangsters and life all wrapped up around bigfoot equals a good time. It's all about bigfoot and the mishaps that happen to him. At first when i was looking at this book i was a bit discourged to read it. But it makes me feel happier about my life than bigfoot. I would encourage everyone to read this book! Great laughs and fun!!

GO BIGFOOT!!!

Princessa