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Alright people time for my update from Good old North Portland.

first thing is first.

Living

Where i am staying at i would not want to leave. It's only 15mins maxs ride to downtown and back. I'm so close to everything. There is a hot tub which i love and helps me relax from a hard days work. Great neighborhood and people there. The max train is only three blocks from the house. The house is a three story. Upstairs, middle and basement. There are two cats. Emma and Smokey. And one dog named Molly. I love molly to death. And Emma But smokey is just too much. "meow, Meow, Meow" Blood meowing......

Job
Work is going great. I could not ask for a better classroom. We had two field trips so far. They are so cute. Full of smiles and life and cuteness. The first part we went to was Lair hills Park right off of SW hooker and Barbur. The old Children;s Museum i guess. It was such a beautiful day with all flowers, and sun, and laughter. I have planned to take a whole month off and go to Kansas to visit Family.

Life
I went to Avenue Q with Mark just on this last Wednesday, It was a great play/musical. I could not stop laughing the whole time. I marched in the gay pride this year again. i was Ms. Avalanche for the Rugby team this year. Pride was great. My mother came up and saw a bunch of things that she has never been exposed to. But overall she told me that "The Gays know how to party." And Next year she will be marching with me.


I do have pictures to post of all the things that have been happening but until i reach my home again. This is what you get!!!


princess

The Best book on the planet

If you haven't read this book yet. Come on, bigfoot, love, killing, gangsters and life all wrapped up around bigfoot equals a good time. It's all about bigfoot and the mishaps that happen to him. At first when i was looking at this book i was a bit discourged to read it. But it makes me feel happier about my life than bigfoot. I would encourage everyone to read this book! Great laughs and fun!!

GO BIGFOOT!!!

Princessa

So here's the thing....

I'm not heart broken. I'm happy of once. I'm not heart broken, just a bit at peace. I end a relationship but begin a wonderful longtime friendship with mark. It was nice to tell him face to face how i feel and what has happen this past month. So over all i do not have the life exp. that he needs. It's ok with that. As longs as we are amigos. i'm cool!


Prnicessa

What is love?

Yesterday at work for an art project with the kids. I asked them if they could draw what their heart looks like and tell me how they feel. Well the one above is how my heart looks and feels. It's filled with loniness, it's sad. it's crying. It's been hurt. All the kids took that with my heart. When asking them what is love, this is what i got back.

Love is when you really like someone, that you really love them.

When your nice to a friend.

(This one is my favorite.) When taking care of someone you love.

Love is funny, happy, cute.

One of the kids told me, My heart is so happy that it's turning black.




Over all they love me and make my day.

Heartbreak hotel

my heart aches so much

i want to run to him and tell him how i feel. be he's not talking with me

so i told myself just give him time

i want to cry, but can't sherd a tear

my thoart is dry. my hand are shaking.

my head hurts

Keeping his heart protected

Why does life like to fuck with me?

When it seems like everything is going well, it has to threw a fucking curve ball at me. Well not just one ball. More like Millions. Millions of red rubber dodge balls being tossed at my head, chest, and private area. It seems to keep hitting my chest and groan. The hard it hits the more it hurts. I'm in need of some protection. I need to catch a ball to protect myself.

That's what i need to do right now.... Protect my heart. Built my walls up and need not to have a heart or feelings. Become numb, Become no soul, Become a zombie.


Feelings are so tough to make one happy. I wish that i could see what the future has for me but can't. So til that I'll be stuck in place i call my life.


Princessa

I might lose the one i love. Please pray that i do not.

What's a boy to do

When there is a problem in your life and you don't know where to turn.. Who do you turn too? God? Food? Friends? Family? The internet?

For me, It's my friends and family. They are the people who i love and trust. I can always turn to them for advice or a nice vent chat. and i will do the same for them too. I know that i can be a bitch at time but what i really need is to take it slow ans listen to him. So far all my friends told me that "he's a great catch" and they like him. "Don't lose him" I don't want to lose him. I really like him and he make me happy and this hard time is something I'm going to have to get over!


Princessa