Home is where the heart is.

A saying that many have said to me. But what if you have left your heart somewhere and you are at a different spot?

(photo from studentsoftheworld.com)

Like Portland, Oregon. My heart is there. With me living in Seattle in my home with my partner and babies. How can my heart be there?

This weekend I was in Portland, OR to play rugby with some past teammates and close friends. It was a blast to see everyone and catch up on what is everyone doing. We hugged and kissed eachother. Made jokes and giggled. It was just like old times. We split the teams up and had a blast screaming , dropping f-bombs, touching and manly grunting. The stuff I miss. Not only touch other guys but the friendships. The people I bonded with for three years. The people I knew that was the closest to brothers I could have. That taught me how to drink beer, sing rugby songs, hit/tackle hard, and to have fun. It was like a frat but only better. It was a gay frat that kept up on the most important matters. "Did you watch america's next top model? Or "Did you see Project Runway yesterday night? Blah Blah Blah is a bitch on that show!" How I also missed oh "she thinks that is all that but she's gonna get checked!"

The thing I am getting at is that we were a family. A family that stood together and was happy. We brought much joy to each other. Whether they be gay, straight, bi, or lesbian. We played together and were a family together.

I miss Rugby and Portland.......

the hardest part in life.

is saying bye to family.
I always get heartbroken when my family leaves to go back to kansas. i wish that we could see eachother more often, but kansas is a shit load of miles away. Why can't they live somewhere that i want to go. but kansas is a ok place to visit. just flat as hell! i miss my bro.

What is this feeling like..

Do you know what it's like to have your heart ripped out of your chest. I really don't know that feeling but i can come close by it. It's like the feeling when someone tells you that they don't love you but really really really "like you", but you have be foolish and kept telling them you love them. Well i am that fool. i really do care for the guy and now having him step all over my heart really sucks. I really don't want to talk with him. I don't know what do you. I'm glad that i didn't cry over this. I am a bit stronger than that and do not need to cry over someone. I really blame this on the whole month he has had. Losing someone very close and he might be taking that out on me. Plus he had a bad day yesterday and need to vent and tell me how he feels!

By the Way....Inservice Sucks for Teachers!!



Princessa