it's been a while

I'm gonna start blogging again. So much has been going on. I'm dating-ish.... a really nice guy. Smart, sexy, caring...awesome! I'm going start my med's for HIV tomorrow. I'm excited and scared! That's all that's going all for now!

Derek

HIV and YOU!

Human immunodeficiency virus (HIV) is a lentivirus (a member of the retrovirus family) that causes acquired immunodeficiency syndrome (AIDS),^[a condition in humans in which progressive failure of the immune system allows life-threatening opportunistic infections and cancers to thrive. Infection with HIV occurs by the transfer of blood, semen, vaginal fluid, pre-ejaculate, or breast milk. Within these bodily fluids, HIV is present as both free virus particles and virus within infected immune cells. The four major routes of transmission are unsafe sex, contaminated needles, breast milk, and transmission from an infected mother to her baby at birth.

For me...I had unsafe sex. So a partner didn't know about this status. Always protect yourself and know your status!

During when I was having sex I let my partner ejaculate into my well "Rosebud" and i contracted the HIV virus. What this means that I can transfer this virus by "barebacking my partner. HIV is a serious virus that there is no cure. But what can happen is there are pills that help lower t-cell and the viral load.

HIV infects vital cells in the human immune system such as helper T cells (specifically CD4⁺ T cells), macrophages, and dendritic cells. HIV infection leads to low levels of CD4⁺ T cells through three main mechanisms: First, direct viral killing of infected cells; second, increased rates of apoptosis in infected cells; and third, killing of infected CD4⁺ T cells by CD8 cytotoxic lymphocytes that recognize infected cells. When CD4⁺ T cell numbers decline below a critical level, cell-mediated immunity is lost, and the body becomes progressively more susceptible to opportunistic infections.

Life goes on...

I've come along way from my previous life. I have moved on and still am living my life the way I should be. Free and full of life!

Below are of some of the last ballroom comp i did with students! Enjoy!

Living in the Moment..

This picture explains my life right now. It's hectic, full of emotions and change. My life has changed over a day. I got some news about my health. I am now HIV Positive. That's a huge thing for me to say-type out. It's a major... Something that I could pass on to someone and yet it's manageable. The shock of hearing I was positive was upsetting. I broke down and cried. I have felt like I wanted to give up. Feeling like dying was the best solution. I have talked with many friends that are HIV poz and it hasn't stopped them from living a normal life. My life expectancy will go down by a year or two. But i know I am going to live forever. So now I am at the stage of my life where I don't know where to go. I am scared and unsure of what's going to happen next. Please keep me in your thoughts and hearts!

It's going to be a bumpy ride.

Derek

I'm alive

Just so you know. I'm in a rough patch in my life but getting things where they need to be!

I'm

Going camping for the weekend.

Later!

Bar dates...

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There has been something that has been on my mind...Bar Dates...

"Bar Dates are for ASSHOLES!!" Yes I said it. When people go on a date to a bar they have one of two things.... low-self-esstem or can't find a real restaurant! I find that FUCKING dumb! Who the Fuck really goes on a date to a bar... The first date NO! The third maybe.... But not the first. But to take someone on a date to a bar is tacky! VERY VERY VERY TACKY!

"What are you doing tonight? What go on a date?

Sure. Where?

Let's go to the bar for our date!"

Why would anyone go to a bar on the first date besides that they might be an alcoholic or that their date might get boring so they can pick up another person there. It ridiculous and childish! I don't fucking care what you say.. It is what it is!