Lookin about into the Past

Normally i always look ahead of my life, But recently I've been looking back on. Past relationships, work, family, time, schooling, fun, love.

It kind bothers me to keep things about this and how much my life would be if i didn't quit that job or didn't break up with that guy or what if i never moved. Here are the out comes I've been thinking about.

Moving from home.

What if i never moved from home. Well I would of been dead or kept my job at the mill casino and hate every moment i was there. Still living with my mother and my dead beat brother and my mothers boyfriend. That does not sound glam. And to top with off, I would be either a druggie or drink too much. Plus all my friend that are there would be dying or something like that. And i would be dating some of the closet people of that town and become the whore of North Bend/Coos Bay.


Fred
When i first moved to Portland i dated this Latino man named Fred. In this case Fred was a sexual addict and was going to SA. I did truly love him but he was too self concern about himself. The things i did like about him was he was very supportive and did care about me and did go to church. If i stayed with him i would of either have been still in the place where we were living or in Arizona. I would not be happy and perhaps be dead.

Arthur Murray.
When i first came to portland i was working at a dance studio trying to make a s**tload of money by dancing. The people i worked for trainned me well and all. But one of my co workers was out to get me. Really she was. She did not like me or the way i was. She always was telling me to be someelse. Telling my students to give us more money and stuff like that. She was two faced, heartless, greedy, A BITCH. Shannon W***s. Well she got me fired for something everyone including herself did. So with this she can go fuck herself. I do miss dancing and all. But I'm better off. If i was still there, i would have to still pretend to be fake to her and deeply dying inside to her and her horrible personality. WHAT A BITCH SHE IS!!!!

Rik

Now with rik I've spend two years of my life with him. I do still care for him and do see him. But some of the things i wanted to do, he never wanted to do. And i just turned 21 when i was with him. And all my friends are young, wanted me to drink. I did like stayin at home and cuddling with him and was happy when he did come out and his personality. If i stayed with him, I would still be in downtown with him, kinda sad that he won't want to go out, and having my mother stay with us when she would visit. And hopefully he won't die yet.

Mark

Mark is a man that i miss but for the best part of my life I'm glad he's gone. Mark was a very handsome, tall, white guy that i fell in love with. I wanted to spend my life with him and share what i could with him. Well it turned out that he wasn't ready for what i had to offer. Well if i stayed with mark, I would be getting up set with the whole no sex part of my life with him and still questioning if he loves me.

So in closing, My life is better off where it is at. Thank god for some of these times in my life. They have made me who i am today.

Peace,

Princessa lil Mexico

The last day of work...

Well today is the second to the last day of work at the Forestry Center. I know i will miss it for the people i have came so close too. But working there, thats another blog within it's self.

So this week was pretty crazy due to the whole weather. Dealing with kids in a hot weather pretty much sucks

Baseball games are fun if you go with the right people.
I took a great adventure with the rios Family on tuesday. Beavers Baseball. Yelling at the hot baseball players was my favorite and singing to song that i knew and ofcourse drinking beer with friends. Great time. I was having so much fun yell, "Come on Matt i believe in you!!" OR "CEASER, SI SE Puede" which means yes you can.



Word up to that. I have more pictures that i will post.


Oh and give it up for New underwear and sock!!!


WORD!!

Princessa lil Mexico

Hasta manana til we meet again

Alright boys and girls it's time for an Update!!!!

I don't have pictures to post on this blog due to i am not home. But every since i have gotten back home my life is on track. When to the brewfest this past weekend. OMG i love beer, and beer loves me. So many beer, and yet so lil time to drink it in. Overall i would go back to the brewfest. The people i was with where fun-er than a barrel of monkeys. I went to go see Dark knight and Mama mia. Both great movies. Dark knight was a bit too dark for me, but was great to see the lovely Heath ledger in a role you wouldn't see him in. Plus trying to get Dancing queen out of your head is not fun. But dancing and sing in a movie theater is GREAT Family fun.



Plus the men in the speedo and flippers.. HOT!!!!

I'm in nopo house sitting. This time for Judge McShane. It really makes me think that i really want a house and a place where i can grow. Why am i a sucker for family style homes.

Also i went to a concert on Wednesday called bitter sweet.

I love that they have a 40's/50's sounds with a lil bit of now mushed all together. After the concert we got to hang out with them and chat and tell them how cool it was to hear there.

I return to the forest center tomorrow. And Re zoom my employment there.

That's all for not.
Until nexxt time princessa fans!

bean, rice, and latino spice!

Kansas, Kansas, Kansas

So for part of this month i've been in Kansas for some of you reader out there that read this blog. Well in Kansas i was greeted by many things. Like a huge ball of Twine, Old soda shops, Family, And a five year old nephew that would not stop. Well now begins the photo trip...

Ready... Set..... Go....


So Basicly this is all of Kansas. Farm land, and no hills. Woot woot.. (not really) but it was ok.


The coolest Flight attendant you will know. Her name is Daney Glenn. And her style and service when it came to safety want one of the best i've seen. She make flying fun. Plus she is really cute. And just the way she talks and gestures all the things you need to know before the flight was not only entertaining but made me feel at ease.


Wichita... a place where no one goes. There is nothing there but corn fields and Wal Marts....



A nephew that just won't stop. Oh how i miss my time with him. Danny jr. is now five and my has he grown. He can ride a bike, a ATV, singing, talk, my choices, love, swim, eat, and be funny!


The people of Oz and i become really great friends! lol



The presidents all seem to like me there too.


Kansas was great but i would not live there. More to come soon. Stay tuned!

Quotes by my nephew.

I'm gonna beat you in the face... fo real.. I'm gonna beat you in the face... la la la la la

This things is Famous.

This is when i was alil boy and i kepy it... Little boy sandwich

Brainy sandwich.

"That's Famous."

Can we play a game...

You lava

I threw a pie in your face

Your just crazy you apple.

Those are coming out of the mouth of a five year old nephew

Time go by

as i leave

as i leave this wonderful place of Kansas I take back some things with me.


A heart...
from the love of my nephew and brothers and sister in law.


Courage....
From meeting new people and traveling to places i would not go to.


Fear....
Getting over the Fact of not being shy in public and letting myself be myself.


Time...
Giving myself time to myself and share my time with others.


Love....
Loving myself and all my friends and Family.


Kansas you will be missed but i will return someday!

Photos

All the things that have happen the past months!
That's all she wrote.

Peace!